MUSCLE

Can you tell I’ve been building muscle?

I know I’m tough but I have to make sure

I can do things you don’t have the guts for

Sometimes I worry that’s all I’m good for

(I’ve been building yeah)


Tell me I couldn’t make you happy

If I changed everything about me

I wanna muscle into your bad dreams

And you can tell me you’re glad to have me

(I just wish you’d give it up)


Stuck in my throat

And as I choke

You’re laughing your head off at me

(I just wish you’d give it up)

Whenever you go

I corrode and

All my muscles go to sleep

(I just want to toughen up)

When all the trust

I’ve built up

Comes back to bite me in my sleep

(I just wish you’d give it up)

I’m getting tough

More robust so

Next time you won’t get to me

I could change

But I’m worried if I move my face

Oh that it might get stuck that way

But under the muscle we’re all the same

Oh


Oh I don’t need much

But maybe I’m just not in touch with it

don’t need much

But maybe I’m just not in touch with it

I don’t need touch

But maybe I just want too much of it

I don’t need touch

Maybe I just want too much


I don’t need love

But maybe I’m not warm enough

No I don't need love

but maybe I’m not warm enough

You call my bluff

And suddenly I’m not so tough

You call my bluff

And suddenly I soften up


Single, 13 Apr 2021

CRIES REAL TEARS!

1. Cry/Fun

2. Insist

3. Hell

4. Accident Prone

5. Daughterproof

EP, 4 Dec 2020

Lyrics

Cry/Fun

Every tantrum looks the same, I do my best to block it out

But when you’re screaming my name it’s hard not to adore the sound

Plus I’ve got a taste for pain from having you around the house

Or is that just my faulty brain telling me I’m not allowed to clean you out

I try to always be myself

But I don’t think I do that very well

And you say I haven’t been myself

And that’s true but I really don’t need your help

I’ve got a taste for pain

I’d do it all again

How can you look so relaxed

Can you teach me to be just like that

I’ve got a taste for pain and I’m sure I’d do it all again

And I could just take the blame but I’m not sure that would feel the same

And you tried to ignore what’s done and tell me I’m the only one

And your threats to cut my tongue means I cry whenever I’m having fun

How could you look so serene

Thought you’d been dying inside just like me

And every weekend looks the same, I do my best to change it out

There’s only so much you can take if you cry when you’re having fun

Plus I’ve got no one to hate, you were the very last one

And I’ve already saved the date for when I learn to hold my tongue

Before I say something dumb

Insist

Insist

(I thought)

I had the muscle to ignore this

I’ve never been a fan of courtship

(And I)

I only really want the bad bits

(So I)

Hope you’ll forgive me when I say this


(I thought) 

I had the stomach to absorb this

(And I)

Won’t interrupt you while you’re talking

(It’s just)

Sometimes my feelings are exhausting

And if I had a choice I’d never get like this

But I just wish you’d say no I insist

I’m gonna need you to ask for all of it

And if you don’t I’ll say no no I insist


I’m not sure what I’m doing 

Here

But I want more than all this crushing

Fear

(All this crushing fear)

And I’m not sure I can go on like this 

But if you go I’ll say no I insist

(I’ll say no I insist)


I’ve got a brain that works against me

(But I can)

Leave it behind whenever we meet

(Because I’m)

Perfectly happy just pretending

(That I’m)

Fine knowing I might never be missed

(No I insist)

And here’s the part where you say no I insist


I’m not sure what I mean to 

You 

Because nothing shuts you up like the

Truth

And I don’t think you wanted any of this

This

But if you go I’ll say no I insist 

(I’ll say no I insist)


And I’m not sure what I’m doing here

But if you insist I’ll stay out out of fear

Hell

I’ve never been so scared

To try something new

But I’m gonna learn 

I’m gonna learn 

I’m gonna learn to do away with you


And even if I end up dead

I’ll see you soon

Cause I’m gonna burn

I’m gonna burn

I’m gonna burn in hell with you


I tried to get the grease

Out of your hair

But it doesn’t work anymore


I’ve never been afraid 

To hurt myself

Cause I always thought

I always thought

I always thought I do it well


Give me another way

To prove myself

Cause I’m gonna turn

I’m gonna turn

I’m gonna turn and hurt you as well


I got all the grease out of my soul

And it’s cleaner than before


I need a change of pace

I exhaust myself 

Cause I’m gonna work 

I’m gonna work

I’m gonna work until I don’t feel well

My heart’s going to waste

And can you tell

That it’s getting worse 

It’s getting worse 

It’s getting worse the more I love myself

(I’ve never been so scared)

(I’ve never been so scared)

The more I love myself

I think I’m going to hell 


I got such a rush out of things being unfair

But now I’m not so sure

I’ve been to hell before

And I’ve never been so bored

I’ve been to hell before

But I’m coming back for more

Accident Prone

I’m taking this nice and slow

You’re not going to rush me no

I prepared so long ago

You won’t interrupt my flow


Gotta let it go

Gonna take it slow

I’ve been feeling sick

Gonna let you know


I’ve been living like I didn’t come into this world accident prone

But my body’s telling me there’s only one way this goes

But I guess under layers of defence I must already know

Because I never let anybody hit too close to home 


(Hit close to home)

(I’m taking it)

(I’m accident prone)

(I’m taking it slow)


And you’ve got bones to pick with me

But I won’t unzip easily

Cause there’s more action in your dreams

So I’m hoping you’ll go back to sleep


Yeah I’ve been living like I didn’t come into this world dumb and alone

But my body’s telling me it’s getting sick of false hope

But I guess under layers of defence I must already know

Because I never let anybody hit too close to home

Oh yeah I only know how to commit 

To being alone

(I only know how to be alone)


Keep me on my toes

And my head explodes

If I start to slip 

Gonna let you know

Daughterproof

I got stolen

And my face is so big and swollen

If you want me to be there, hold on

I’m a decade behind


I’ve been crying

But don’t want it to look like I’m in 

Deeper trouble than we’ve both been in

Just don’t look at my eyes

I’ve been crying


If I wake up in a cold sweat I

Wonder if you care

Just need to know you’re there

I get so scared 


I get boring

It’s so ugly to watch me growing

Forgot to check that my heart’s still going

Too busy losing my mind


You can’t catch me

When I’m changing my hair so quickly

If you decide that you just can’t stand me

Just know I’m gonna be fine

I’m too happy


But If I wake up calling your name I

Wonder if you’d hear

Can you taste my fear

From over here?


I’ve been dying

And I’ve been crying

But I’m on pining

I swear I’m gonna be fine

DEBT

I worry I’m getting numb to all the numbers

But some of them were really turning my stomach

I worry I’m too dumb to know how love works

I’m always diving into trouble head-first

Ooh ooh, I’ve no idea where you’ve been

Ooh ooh, but I’m sick of letting you in

(Debt)

(That you’re in)

You’re gonna pay

I write

Don’t touch

On your body

(Yeah I write don’t touch on your body so no one can touch you except me)

And I’d like

To see

You try to stop me

(Yeah I’m only gonna stop if you learn how to ask me, yeah I’m—)

Oh baby baby do you ever think of hurting me?

(Do you ooh ooh ooh)

(I think you do)

Oh baby baby will you ever pay your debt to me?

Cause nothing’s free

With me

(Debt)

You write

Disgust

On my body

(And I know in my gut you’ll only wanna touch me when I’m on my knees)

But I know

My love

You’re glad you’ve got me

(And yeah I’ll help you out a lot if you learn how to muffle my scream)

And it’s just

My luck

To be left this empty

(Oh it’s just my luck to feel like I’m missing something that I really need)

You’ll pay

The debt

But you’ll still owe me

(You’ll still owe)

Oh baby baby do you ever want some inner peace?

(Do you ooh ohh)

(I’ve no idea what you’ve seen)

Then maybe maybe you can settle all your debt to me

(Oooh oooh I bet you’re sick of being so mean)


Single, 20 Nov 2020

Issy Wood – “Cry/Fun” cover

CRY/FUN

Every tantrum looks the same, I do my best to block it out

But when you’re screaming my name it’s hard not to adore the sound

Plus I’ve got a taste for pain from having you around the house

Or is that just my faulty brain telling me I’m not allowed to clean you out


I try to always be myself

But I don’t think I do that very well

And you say I haven’t been myself

And that’s true but I really don’t need your help


I’ve got a taste for pain

I’d do it all again

How can you look so relaxed

Can you teach me to be just like that


I’ve got a taste for pain and I’m sure I’d do it all again

And I could just take the blame but I’m not sure that would feel the same

And you tried to ignore what’s done and tell me I’m the only one

And your threats to cut my tongue means I cry whenever I’m having fun


How could you look so serene

Thought you’d been dying inside just like me


And every weekend looks the same, I do my best to change it out

There’s only so much you can take if you cry when you’re having fun

Plus I’ve got no one to hate, you were the very last one

And I’ve already saved the date for when I learn to hold my tongue

Before I say something dumb


Single, 13 Nov 2020