DISASTER/LUCKY

I’m a walking disaster

(Save me from myself

I never learn baby)

Wait

I’m a walking disaster

(I keep falling down

And fucking up)

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

when I do it

And I don’t wanna talk about it

I don’t wanna talk about it

Make me do it

And I’ll try to walk

I’ll try to walk around it

When I do it

And I don’t wanna talk about it

I don’t wanna talk about it

Make me do it

And I’ll try to walk

I’ll try to walk around

I’m a lucky

Girl

Lucky girl

Yeah

I’ll walk until I hurt

Pretend I’m an extrovert

I’m getting on my own nerves

I’m such a lucky girl

Yeah I’ll hurt until it works

(Ha)

Til love and disaster blur

When luck feels just like a curse

I’m such a lucky girl

(I’m great but I make things harder)

I’m a lucky

Girl

But being lucky

Hurts

I’m a lucky

Girl

Lucky

Everywhere I go I make a mess

(Destruction, I fucked up again)

I’ve done a lot of things I want to forget

Such a lucky

Girl

When I do it

And I don’t wanna talk about it

I don’t wanna talk about it

Make me do it

And I’ll try to walk

I’ll try to walk around it

When I do it

And I don’t wanna talk about it

I don’t wanna talk about it

Make me do it

And I’ll try to walk

I’ll try to walk around

The pain

Starts to turn to laughter

Single, 28 Sep 2021

IF IT’S ANY CONSTELLATION

1. I’ll Hold

2. Muscle

3. Tough Luv

4. Fuss

5. Child’s Pose

EP, 29 May 2021

Lyrics

I’ll Hold

Ooh baby don’t

(Please don’t)

Go but if you must

I guess I’ll hold

(I’ve already waited this long)

I know things are slow

I won’t let my impatience rule my tone

But I’m lying to you

Dying to know

I can cause a lot of hurt you know that

(About me, about me)

Now the question is whether I’m worth the combat

Cause so far nobody has ever called me back

I’ve made a list of things I need to work at

And every night I find something to add

And now I use it as a welcome mat

(Please don’t)

I’ve been measuring my worth, yeah

(Let go)

Just tell me what I deserve, yeah

(Please don’t)

Tell me I’m a real piece of work, yeah

And I can cause a lot of hurt

(Please don’t)

Now I feel love in reverse, yeah

(Try to put me on hold)

And I’m a little slow to learn, yeah

(Please don’t)

But you’re just making it worse, yeah

(No you don’t)

And it’s true that hurt people hurt people oh

(No you won’t)

But that’s not an excuse to leave

(No you don’t)

And we know that worse people burn people oh

(No you won’t)

But that’s not an excuse for me

You love to make me wait

I’m still on hold

(I’ve always hated this song)

It takes so long

So don’t you dare obstruct the roll I’m on

And I’m trying but I’m doing it wrong

I can cause a lot of hurt you know that

I’ve been measuring my worth, yeah

Everyone can feel it in the way I act

But so far nobody has ever fought me back

Muscle

Can you tell I’ve been building muscle?

I know I’m tough but I have to make sure

I can do things you don’t have the guts for

Sometimes I worry that’s all I’m good for

(I’ve been building, yeah)

Tell me I couldn’t make you happy

If I changed everything about me

I wanna muscle into your bad dreams

And you can tell me you’re glad to have me

Stuck in my throat

And as I choke

You’re laughing your head off at me

(I just wish you’d give it up)

Whenever you go

I corrode

And all my muscles go to sleep

(I just want to toughen up)

When all the trust

I’ve build up

Comes back to bite me in my sleep

(I just wish you’d give it up)

I’m getting tough

More robust

So next time you won’t get to me

I could change

But I’m worried if I move my face

Oh that it might get stuck that way

Cause under the muscle we’re all the same

I don’t need much

But maybe I’m just not in touch with it

Don’t need much

But maybe I’m just not in touch with it

I don’t need touch

But maybe I just want too much of it

I don’t need touch

Maybe I just want too much

I don’t need love

But maybe I’m not warm enough

No I don’t need love

But maybe I’m not warm enough

You call my bluff

And suddenly I’m not so tough

Oh yeah you call my bluff

And suddenly I soften up

Tough Luv

Oh it can be

So comforting when you threaten me

I do what you say

I guess I’m weird that way

It’s funny you should mention games

I’m making that my middle name

If you’re offering attention, hey

I’ll take that any time of day

It’s funny you should mention trust

As I wreck everything I touch

And if you want concentration

Say before my mind wonders away

Oh it can be

So comforting when you threaten me

I do what you say

I guess I’m weird that way

Your tough love baby

Makes me upset

But it works so perfectly

I just need to know my place

Hey, hey, ga-a-ames

It’s funny you should mention pain

Yeah I I’ve been feeling that all day

Yeah

Lay down the law

(Don’t give my agency a second thought)

Cause I haven’t played this game before

(It’s funny you should mention all that scorn)

Ooh it’s funny you should mention blame

I’m making that your middle name

And if you’ve got bad intentions, say

Cause your tough love keeps me in shape

(I guess I’m weird that way)

Fuss

I’ll never make a fuss

I know you’ve got a lot coming up

Maybe I’ll turn all your dreams to dust

But

I won’t make a fuss

I’ll make quiet sound like it’s too much

Maybe I’ll tell all your friends you’re washed up

But

I won’t make a fuss

I’ll abuse your trust

But I won’t make a fuss

Tell me am I

On your good side

If I sit tight

And act nice

Nice, yeah

Yeah I’m feeling good it’s just

Your love’s got me close to concussed

And maybe I’ll meet all your heat with disgust

But I won’t make a fuss

I’ll abuse your trust

But I won’t make a fuss

Tell me am I

On your good side

Tell me am I

On your good side

Tell me am I

On your good side

Tell me am I

On your good side

I really try

Child’s Pose

Oh once the trauma’s baked in

You’ll never sweat it out

It’s set up shop in your bones

And once it’s normal to drink

And kind of hope you drown

You know you’re really alo-o-one

You know you’re really alone

I’ve only got one foot in

I keep the other out

I should take that leap but I don’t

Thought I knew what I was in for

Growing up but now

I’m moving to child’s po-o-ose

I just hope that nobody knows

I go

To child’s pose

If you want some help

You’re on your own

Been walking backwards going home

And it’s been really hard on my toes

I kinda wish I’d drowned that time

But then I like how it feels to grow

Been getting back to my basic needs

But I’m so sick of this family

I’ve got a grown-up heart I know

But

I get stuck in

Child’s pose

Oh I won’t know what you think

Unless you spit it out

Maybe just leave me alone

I’m better off on my own

Maybe I’ll show you just how much I’ve grown

But let’s do that over the phone

MUSCLE

Can you tell I’ve been building muscle?

I know I’m tough but I have to make sure

I can do things you don’t have the guts for

Sometimes I worry that’s all I’m good for

(I’ve been building yeah)

Tell me I couldn’t make you happy

If I changed everything about me

I wanna muscle into your bad dreams

And you can tell me you’re glad to have me

(I just wish you’d give it up)

Stuck in my throat

And as I choke

You’re laughing your head off at me

(I just wish you’d give it up)

Whenever you go

I corrode and

All my muscles go to sleep

(I just want to toughen up)

When all the trust

I’ve built up

Comes back to bite me in my sleep

(I just wish you’d give it up)

I’m getting tough

More robust so

Next time you won’t get to me

I could change

But I’m worried if I move my face

Oh that it might get stuck that way

But under the muscle we’re all the same

Oh I don’t need much

But maybe I’m just not in touch with it

don’t need much

But maybe I’m just not in touch with it

I don’t need touch

But maybe I just want too much of it

I don’t need touch

Maybe I just want too much

I don’t need love

But maybe I’m not warm enough

No I don't need love

but maybe I’m not warm enough

You call my bluff

And suddenly I’m not so tough

You call my bluff

And suddenly I soften up

Single, 13 Apr 2021

CRIES REAL TEARS!

1. Cry/Fun

2. Insist

3. Hell

4. Accident Prone

5. Daughterproof

EP, 4 Dec 2020

Lyrics

Cry/Fun

Every tantrum looks the same, I do my best to block it out

But when you’re screaming my name it’s hard not to adore the sound

Plus I’ve got a taste for pain from having you around the house

Or is that just my faulty brain telling me I’m not allowed to clean you out

‍

I try to always be myself

But I don’t think I do that very well

And you say I haven’t been myself

And that’s true but I really don’t need your help

‍

I’ve got a taste for pain

I’d do it all again

How can you look so relaxed

Can you teach me to be just like that

‍

I’ve got a taste for pain and I’m sure I’d do it all again

And I could just take the blame but I’m not sure that would feel the same

And you tried to ignore what’s done and tell me I’m the only one

And your threats to cut my tongue means I cry whenever I’m having fun

‍

How could you look so serene

Thought you’d been dying inside just like me

‍

And every weekend looks the same, I do my best to change it out

There’s only so much you can take if you cry when you’re having fun

Plus I’ve got no one to hate, you were the very last one

And I’ve already saved the date for when I learn to hold my tongue

Before I say something dumb

Insist

(I thought)

I had the muscle to ignore this

I’ve never been a fan of courtship

(And I)

I only really want the bad bits

(So I)

Hope you’ll forgive me when I say this

(I thought)

I had the stomach to absorb this

(And I)

Won’t interrupt you while you’re talking

(It’s just)

Sometimes my feelings are exhausting

And if I had a choice I’d never get like this

But I just wish you’d say no I insist

I’m gonna need you to ask for all of it

And if you don’t I’ll say no no I insist

I’m not sure what I’m doing

Here

But I want more than all this crushing

Fear

(All this crushing fear)

And I’m not sure I can go on like this

But if you go I’ll say no I insist

(I’ll say no I insist)

I’ve got a brain that works against me

(But I can)

Leave it behind whenever we meet

(Because I’m)

Perfectly happy just pretending

(That I’m)

Fine knowing I might never be missed

(No I insist)

And here’s the part where you say no I insist

I’m not sure what I mean to

You

Because nothing shuts you up like the

Truth

And I don’t think you wanted any of this

This

But if you go I’ll say no I insist

(I’ll say no I insist)

And I’m not sure what I’m doing here

But if you insist I’ll stay out out of fear

Hell

I’ve never been so scared

To try something new

But I’m gonna learn

I’m gonna learn

I’m gonna learn to do away with you

And even if I end up dead

I’ll see you soon

Cause I’m gonna burn

I’m gonna burn

I’m gonna burn in hell with you

I tried to get the grease

Out of your hair

But it doesn’t work anymore

I’ve never been afraid

To hurt myself

Cause I always thought

I always thought

I always thought I do it well

Give me another way

To prove myself

Cause I’m gonna turn

I’m gonna turn

I’m gonna turn and hurt you as well

I got all the grease out of my soul

And it’s cleaner than before

I need a change of pace

I exhaust myself

Cause I’m gonna work

I’m gonna work

I’m gonna work until I don’t feel well

My heart’s going to waste

And can you tell

That it’s getting worse

It’s getting worse

It’s getting worse the more I love myself

(I’ve never been so scared)

The more I love myself

I think I’m going to hell

I got such a rush out of things being unfair

But now I’m not so sure

I’ve been to hell before

And I’ve never been so bored

I’ve been to hell before

But I’m coming back for more

Accident Prone

I’m taking this nice and slow

You’re not going to rush me no

I prepared so long ago

You won’t interrupt my flow

Gotta let it go

Gonna take it slow

I’ve been feeling sick

Gonna let you know

I’ve been living like I didn’t come into this world accident prone

But my body’s telling me there’s only one way this goes

But I guess under layers of defence I must already know

Because I never let anybody hit too close to home

(Hit close to home)

(I’m taking it)

(I’m accident prone)

(I’m taking it slow)

And you’ve got bones to pick with me

But I won’t unzip easily

Cause there’s more action in your dreams

So I’m hoping you’ll go back to sleep

Yeah I’ve been living like I didn’t come into this world dumb and alone

But my body’s telling me it’s getting sick of false hope

But I guess under layers of defence I must already know

Because I never let anybody hit too close to home

Oh yeah I only know how to commit

To being alone

(I only know how to be alone)

Keep me on my toes

And my head explodes

If I start to slip

Gonna let you know

Daughterproof

I got stolen

And my face is so big and swollen

If you want me to be there, hold on

I’m a decade behind

I’ve been crying

But don’t want it to look like I’m in

Deeper trouble than we’ve both been in

Just don’t look at my eyes

I’ve been crying

If I wake up in a cold sweat I

Wonder if you care

Just need to know you’re there

I get so scared

I get boring

It’s so ugly to watch me growing

Forgot to check that my heart’s still going

Too busy losing my mind

You can’t catch me

When I’m changing my hair so quickly

If you decide that you just can’t stand me

Just know I’m gonna be fine

I’m too happy

But If I wake up calling your name I

Wonder if you’d hear

Can you taste my fear

From over here?

I’ve been dying

And I’ve been crying

But I’m on pining

I swear I’m gonna be fine

‍

DEBT

I worry I’m getting numb to all the numbers

But some of them were really turning my stomach

I worry I’m too dumb to know how love works

I’m always diving into trouble head-first

‍

Ooh ooh, I’ve no idea where you’ve been

Ooh ooh, but I’m sick of letting you in

(Debt)

(That you’re in)

You’re gonna pay

‍

I write

Don’t touch

On your body

(Yeah I write don’t touch on your body so no one can touch you except me)

And I’d like

To see

You try to stop me

‍

(Yeah I’m only gonna stop if you learn how to ask me, yeah I’m—)

‍

Oh baby baby do you ever think of hurting me?

(Do you ooh ooh ooh)

(I think you do)

Oh baby baby will you ever pay your debt to me?

Cause nothing’s free

With me

(Debt)

You write

Disgust

On my body

(And I know in my gut you’ll only wanna touch me when I’m on my knees)

But I know

My love

You’re glad you’ve got me

‍

(And yeah I’ll help you out a lot if you learn how to muffle my scream)

And it’s just

My luck

To be left this empty

(Oh it’s just my luck to feel like I’m missing something that I really need)

You’ll pay

The debt

But you’ll still owe me

(You’ll still owe)

‍

Oh baby baby do you ever want some inner peace?

(Do you ooh ohh)

(I’ve no idea what you’ve seen)

Then maybe maybe you can settle all your debt to me

(Oooh oooh I bet you’re sick of being so mean)

Single, 20 Nov 2020

DISASTER/LUCKY

IF IT’S ANY CONSTELLATION

MUSCLE

CRIES REAL TEARS!

DEBT

CRY/FUN